finally- a post

I'm not going to lie.  This year has been hard- quite possibly the hardest year of my 30 years.  I've experienced enough change, heartbreak, and pain to last me for quite some time. 

Throughout the year, as trial after trial has rolled over my heart, one thing has not changed.  My God has been faithful.  In those moments when I found myself overwhelmed with heartbreak, He was there.  When the tears fell on my pillow in the darkness of night, He was there.  On the days when anger and bitterness threatened to overtake the hope in my heart, He was there.

Is this the direction I would have picked for my life?  Not at all.  Do I miss the way things were?  Sometimes.  Am I happy?  Most of the time.  Am I at peace?  Most definitely.

So, while I am not at all sad to see 2011 come to an end, I am ending it with a full heart.  Surprisingly enough, I find myself with infinitely more blessings than when this year began.  These blessings have come in unexpected places- lessons learned, deeper relationships, a new church family, appreciation for my husband.  The greatest blessing of all comes from somewhere deep within- a place of deeper intimacy with my Savior.  And at the end of the day, I would walk through another year like this one to know Him more.

Oh, my God, He will not delay
My refuge and strength always
I will not fear, His promise is true
My God will come through always, always
--always, by kristian stanfill